I want to be a body. I've never been a body before. I've been a mind, an integrity, a value. Not a body. Not something so base. And yet— I am endlessly apologetic of the space I take up in the world. On high alert, folding myself small so as not to bother anyone orbiting near. Any inadvertent contact a corrective shock. I don’t think men feel this way, do they? Hyper-aware, forever on edge in their own skin. Tell me they don’t. Make me jealous. They are just bodies to me now. Nothing more. I can't tell you names or jobs or favorite brands of bourbon. But I can tell you how four limbs are compact, blocky like an action figure. Or how a stomach distends over me— a trim globe that makes me go concave. I’d love to play the man, let all of me fill up the world.
About the Author:
Brenna McPeek is a writer and editor based in New York City. She received her MFA in Fiction from Columbia University and her work has appeared in Grain, Necessary Fiction, KGB Bar Lit, and other publications.