I want to be a body. I've never been 
a body before. I've been a mind, 
                                                           an integrity, 
a value. 

Not a body. Not something 
so base. And yet—

I am endlessly apologetic of the space I take up 
in the world. On high alert, 
                                             folding myself small 
so as not to bother anyone orbiting near. 

Any inadvertent contact 
a corrective shock. 

I don’t think men feel this way, 
do they? 
                                Hyper-aware, forever on edge 
in their own skin. 

Tell me they don’t. Make me 
jealous. 

They are just bodies to me now. Nothing 
more. I can't tell you names 
                                                                    or jobs 
or favorite brands of bourbon. 

But I can tell you how four limbs are 
compact, blocky like an action figure. 

Or how a stomach 
distends over me—
                                                      a trim globe that 
makes me go concave. 

I’d love to play the man, 
let all of me fill up the world. 

About the Author:

Brenna McPeek is a writer and editor based in New York City. She received her MFA in Fiction from Columbia University and her work has appeared in GrainNecessary FictionKGB Bar Lit, and other publications.

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