I. on nights like this, i carry my mother's prayers on my sleeve for fear that my sanity will go south. Allah ya rabaki da shairin masu shairi now, i know that grief is a way to learn that nothing as the beginning of something is the start of everything. how do you hide the tongue that keeps fighting your teeth when you try to call your mother’s name, or her favourite meal, or the proverb she says when you pick on your younger brother? i'm not a comedian but people find my clothes & shoes funny. maybe it's the way i wear them or the molds that grip them. can't tell which. since music in the mouth of an orphan is mistaken as roƙo, grief taps its feet on my tongue & begins to dance. II. understand that grief can only drown you but you can't drown it. that prayers won't reach God fastest when you sip a bit of gin nor wash the fragrance of pain crawling on your skin. prayer is a way of cleansing the soul. after performing my wudu, with my forehead on the prayer mat, i said, my Lord, sentence grief to eternity in the name it carries—fire but i unwound my tongue when nightbirde said grieving is the soul's way of saying it mattered. now, i say, my Lord, let the fire it carries dip in zamzam & never learn how to rekindle again. amin.
About the Author:
Zaynab Bobi, Frontier I, is a Nigerian poet, digital artist, and photographer from Bobi. She is a member of Hilltop Creative Art Abuja branch, Poetry Club Udus, Frontier Collective, and a Medical Laboratory Science student of Usmanu Danfodiyo University Sokoto. Her works are published and forthcoming in Blue Marble Review, Barren Magazine, Isele Magazine, Type House Literary Magazine, Night Coffee Lit, Wrongdoing Magazine, Rulerless Lit, Harbour Review, B’K Magazine, Olney Magazine, All My Relations, Salamander Ink, Anti-Heroin Chic, Kalahari Review, Sledgehammer Lit, Praxis Mag, Paddler Press, WRR, Overhead Literary Magazine, Melbourne Culture Corner, Ice Floe Press, Lunaris Review, Rigorous Magazine, Olit Magazine, The Shallow Tales Review, and more. She tweets @ZainabBobi.
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